4th Anniversary & few updates.

22nd Dec 2007 ~ 2011.

It's our 4th Anniversary!

No picture this year because we didn't got the chance to celebrate it.
The kids are unwell.
 Hopefully they will get better soon.

I got a PC as my anniversary gift.

The best gift ever!
Both my laptops are dying and I have been online using my phone since the last few months.
That explain why I didn't even bother about the spider webs building up in this diary of mine. Truly sorry dear..

Teddy just got back from China last month
and he'd been assigned to Sweden 2 weeks later for another vehicle test.
He's been there for 3 weeks and got back here last Sunday.

While he was away..
I gathered lots of pictures of the kids..
and put it in an album ~ 3 weeks without daddy.

28th Nov 2010 ~ 2011.

It has been a year we live here!
Our sweet little casa.
I am glad we are finally home.
It was dusty and wild grass is growing rapidly between the pebbles outside.
I didn't dare to check out the lawn behind our house as it is now starting to look like a jungle.

..UPDATES ON LITTLE LOTUS

She's 9 months old now.

Jumpy, active little girl ..
and she never fails to melt my heart
every time she put a smile on that pretty little face.

She crawls every where.
Mouth every things..
and freaks out when she didn't see me.

Yesterday I just found out her 1st tooth has just popped out!


..UPDATES ON TEDDY JR.

He is certainly a fine young man now.
A caring big brother.
His vocab is getting better and can communicate clearly now.
Malay is his 1st language and I still need to teach him English words.
He can counts until 10 and recognize letters in image form.
Eg : He saw 'SAMSUNG' advertising and suddenly he said that is Mommy's phone!

Being more independent by days
and started to gain more confidence.
He started to build friendships and that really made me proud of him.
I used to be so worried that he will always be under my arms,
scared to stand on his own.
He proves me wrong, big time!

Phew..
My blog is finally updated.
Via new pc.. of course.
Thanks my dear Teddy.
We love you so much.

3rd Anniversary

22 December 2007 ~ 2010

Happy 3rd Anniversary to us.

To my dearest hubby,

There are no perfect word to describe..

how much I thank you

for always being there for me.

how much I adore you

for just being yourself.

how much I love you

for no reason at all.

I hope we can grow old together

and still walking hand in hand,

and share smiles and jokes

until the end of time.

Terima kasih buat suami..

Padi tadi lepas subuh,
tiba-tiba saya rasa perut saya pedih teramat.
Pedih sampai keluar air mata.
Sampai tak larat nak buat apa-apa.

Korek-korek dapur,
roti dah tamat tempohnya.
Biskut kering pun habis.

Mengadu pada Teddy,
tengok-tengok dia hilang macam tu saja.
Mulanya terasa sikit.
Mungkin dia lambat nak pergi kerja..

Turun dapur saya terkejut,
Teddy tengah membancuh sesuatu.
Rupanya dia nak gorengkan jemput-jemput kegemaran saya.
Terharu sangat-sangat.

Saya tergolek di tilam bersama Teddy Jr.
Perut pedih.

Buka-buka mata tengok Teddy sudah hilang.
Kelam-kabut lambat pergi kerja.

Atas meja ada hidangan istimewa.
Masih panas.


Saya rasa sayang sangat nak makan.
Jadi ambil gambar dulu.
Lepas tu saya makan macam orang kebuluran.
(Memang tengah kebulur pun)
Tinggalkan sedikit untuk Teddy Jr.

Jemput-jemput paling sedap pernah saya rasa.

..Terima kasih, sayang..

Tagged by Sue

I have left this tagging game long time ago but since I was tagged by the sweetest person I ever knew, Puan Suraya.. I decided to do it. 

 

1. First time jumpa with your hubby bila and kat mana?  

    SAMURA, 1999. 

2. Love at first sight? 

      
      No and Yes. 

      (No) He's my senior at SAMURA. 
      Nak kena tumbuk ngan akak-akak senior ke ngorat senior putera? 

      (Yes) 1st met after 5 years apart.

      My heart stop beating for a few seconds when I lay my eyes on him for the 1st time.
      Still fresh in my mind when he came to pick me up in front of my condo.. 
     That black leather jacket and big bike suit him well

3. Who is he when the first time u met him? 

    Told you. He's my senior.. 

4. How long it takes for him to ask u out for a date?

    Errr.. 5 years?

5. First place dating di?
    The Mines, Big Mac at Mc D, and movie..Bewitched 
 

That picture was taken during our 1st date (14 Aug 2005)

6. How he proposed?

     Not sure. He asked me to marry him from day 1 we became steady.

7. Special date with your hubby?

    Paris. No doubt. It's the most romantic city in the world 
    and I'm glad to be there with the person I love the most.
 

8. Changes that he asked you to do?
    Nothing.

9. What is about him that you love so much?
    Broad shoulder, cute butt, sexy legs and his dimples

     He's the most handsome man alive, don't you think so? hehe

10. What is about him that u wish he would change?

     Nothing.

11. You will lose your mind n crack your head when he?
    ..is far away from me

12. You will smile tru your eyes for the whole day when he?
   ..said "I yeb yu.."

13. complete below sentences "My love towards my hubby is as big as...? 
     (can't find any perfect word. Love is unmeasurable) 

 

I Yeb Yu, my dear Teddy bear..

You are the best husband in the world!!

2nd Anniversary series - Part 1

On our Anniversary night
(22nd December 2009),

we had our dinner at Look Out Point, Ampang

That place was special to us

as we used to go there to see the beautiful KL's night view

We even celebrated 2008 new years celebration there

We saw several fireworks scattered around KLCC when the clock touch 12

Great view from up there

View from our table

Fish fingers for starter (RM11 ++)

Grilled salmon with pasta for Teddy (RM21 ++)

Sizzling BBQ Steak for me (RM 19++)

I always love to dine there

The foods were marvellous

The view was breathtaking

The services were great

but what made it extra special was

to share it with the ones I love the most

Kimi @ Penang

As promised,

here are some of my Little Teddy's pictures

(with Nenek..)

 

   

(with Daddy..)

 

(at the hotel..) 

  

In less than a month we will be celebrating

his 1st birthday!

(Get ready to read this over-used phrased..)

"  How fast time flew.."

He's getting bigger,

more adventurous,

and of course

more charming than ever

He makes me proud everyday

 

I am so in love now

I love being a mom

I love you my Little sweetheart..

I love you my dear Teddy

2nd Anniversary

22 December 2007 ~ 2009

(Credits to Ely, the photographer)

It's our

2nd Anniversary

May God bless us always

(Credits to cik A'an, for the photo and editing)

and good fortune

and more happinest

and most important of all

more and more LOVE!!

To my dearest Husband,

Nothing can describe

how much I LOVE YOU

as

I carry your heart

I carry it in my heart

..always..

A tribute to L.O.V.E and Friendship

F.R.I.E.N.D


This is a tribute for my 'used-to be-my best friend'.

"Do you really understand what friend are for? Do you realize why your friend are keeping their distance from you? Do you realize that darling? ..because they (including me) can't stand any words that came out from you.."

Yes. These words are kinda harsh and mean from me. I am sorry. I have reach the limit of my patience. I don't want to act like I am the one who is always to be blamed anymore. I don't want to give any stupid reason to you like I always did. I don't want to pretend like nothing happen and did my best to protect your feeling. I need to stop that.

You want to know the truth? You want me to be bold and transparent? You want no secret between us? I warn you, this can be very harmful. I won't do that in case if you made me to do it. Like I did now..

"Sorry, I can't go out with you because I need to go out for a date with my Teddy"
"Sorry, I'm very busy lately with my work."
"Sorry, I don't know when did you change your work"
"sorry, I can't be there because.. (fill in the blank yourself) "

I don't blame you for not believing all the stupid reasons I gave you. I did that to protect your feeling. Why? I am trying my best not to give you the real reason - I don't want to see you. It's not about Teddy..or work.. or anything. It's just about me. I don't want to hang out together with you. That's the main reason.

Okay. I am being very mean here. Accept it. Try to understand first and not just pointing your finger at me or anyone else.

I know. You will blame me for not being there by your side every time you need me. I'm not there for your akad nikah. I'm not there to hang out with you once in 4 years while you're back from Japan. I'm not there when you are giving birth to your 1st son. I'm not there. That's what best friend are for is it? to be there beside you every time when needed. ..but sadly I'm not there.

Like Akon said. "you can put your blame on me"..

I fail to be by your side at that time. It's useless to explain anything since you will never accept any explanation. I have my own reason for not being there.

I don't think that best friend MUST be there by your side every time in need. Sometimes we have our own problem and reasons for not being there. Something more important or higher priority than that. Best friends are someone who understand you and giving all support for any decision you made. Best friend will never hurt each other with their words. Not just simply criticize and giving own opinion without considering your feeling. I will never do that to you. I will never complaint your dress are stupid, your boyfriend is useless, your body so skinny, your hair style is the worst ..or anything.. because I know words can be very deceiving. Internal bleeding can cause you to die slowly in a very painful way.

I have forgive you for what you have said during my engagement. It's ok to accept when you complaint that I look fat because I know that is the truth..but it's not ok when you start criticizing about everything else. My engagement ring looks so cheap. My fiance's digi cam is not good compared to your SLR. My henna on my hand..

You spoiled my mood with your words. You spoiled my 'perfect-little-engagement-ceremony' that I can only experienced it once in a lifetime. I tried to be happy but I can't. So, I just pretend to be happy. I feel so down to earth for all the things that I got. That's all I can afford and please don't compare the price with my own satisfaction.

Please think before you said anything. When you come to celebrate somebody's wedding, no body will say something bad in front of the couple. You will give them compliments and share their happiness to celebrate their big day. You will say something like "You look so beautiful today" although you think the bride's make up make her looks like a witch. When you come to see a new born baby, you will definitely say the baby is so cute although you think the baby is as ugly as his parent (I'm being very mean again). Hey, don't said that you never had that kind of mean thinking! That's why sometimes white lies are important. You can't just simply said anything that come across your mind especially on somebody's big day..

I have forgive you. I give you so many chances to change..but I know you will never change. You will point to somebody else to be blame. You want everyone to listen to you and obey your order. You are lucky to have your childhood friends to be by your side every time you need them but please don't be ignorant. Understand their feelings and respect them. They are great friends and please appreciate them.

That's why I choose to play safe - to stay away from you. Not to be near you means not to be mentally tortured by your words. That's what you need to know dear..

Please forgive me for everything I've done. Don't hate me because I am being very mean to you. I hope we can still be friend like before. Time will heal everything and I hope I day we will meet again to forgive and forget.




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L.O.V.E

I admit it. I'm anuptaphobia ~ afraid of being single. I knew that since I've never been 'single' for more than 3 months from the past 10 years. Hehehehe.. Officially, I have 8 ex's (unofficial - more than that) and the longest relationship was 2 years but within that time I get bored and built another new relationship. The shortest was 1 month (which I suspect that guy might be gay) and I don't want to take any risk when he started to go to the gym everyday and start telling me stories about his gym instructors. Ouch!!

No..I'm not a bad girl. I'm not the only one to be blame for having so many ex's. I used to suffer from heartbreak (dig my diary and you'll find the proof here).

To Lan - I'm sorry because I left you for another guy
To Nizam - I'm sorry because I get bored easily
To Ruz - I admire you but I know we will never be together
To Imran - how could you involve your mother at the first place?
To Zaki - To be honest, I'm frustrated..but completely get over the feeling when I knew Ayuni (Please..don't hurt her feelings and repeat the same mistake)
To Syed - you made my life like hell..really. Get away from me
To Achap - No chemistry between us
To Zul - I hope you are happy with your marriage

I am being very honest here. This entry is made as a tribute to them. Please forgive me for what I have done and thank you for all the experience, the feelings and the memories. I learn so much from it and that made me a woman today.

Thank you.

I stop my searching for Love when I found Isa Yassir Arafat (a.k.a Teddy). I found my other half. I will fall in love every time when I saw him. I will never get tired for mentioning his name to everyone and I can't stop myself from smiling every time when he came across my mind. I am very proud to have him as my fiance.

I love the way he is. I love his smile and envy his dimples. I love the way his small eyes shrink when he smiles. I love his smell. I love his broad shoulder and chest. I love his sexy legs. I love his cute butt. I love everything about him. The way he looks, his voice, his jokes, his laugh, his kindness.. etc. etc. etc.

I hope that he will be mine forever. I hope that I can have kids that have my eyes and his dimples. I hope that he can protect me all the time. I hope that he will loves me forever.

I'm looking forward for this date;

22nd December 2007

He will be mine. 1 more day to go..



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