Dedicated specially for you

Hi there my Little One..


How are you? I hope you are always in the pink of health. I know that you are feeling a little bit uncomfortable inside since there is not much room for you to do somersault anymore.. but bear with me just for a little while.

Still remember the first time I knew about you? Please forgive me for what I've done. I'm in so much misery and not fully prepared for that. I threw away the pregnancy test kit immediately after I got the positive sign. I didn't even bother to keep it or atleast.. take a picture of it as a souvenir of 1 of the most historical moment in my life. (Yes, I do regret it now..) I didn't even record the date, but I guess it was on the 31st May 2008. I was so sick that time, pale and exhausted.. unable to get up from my bed for about 1 week.

I suffered for another 1 week before I finally got an appointment with the GP (General Practitioner). In UK, the process to get a treatment is completely different from Malaysia. Your Daddy have to prepare some documents before our registration accepted. Then, we have to wait another few days to meet the GP. Appointment have to be made few days in advance. The GP will check your condition and then give you drugs list that you will have to get or buy it yourself from the nearest pharmacy (eg: Guardian). We are very lucky here in Malaysia because there are a lot of hospitals/clinics that will accept patient 24/7. Just take a few simple registration process and on the spot there will be a doctor to attend you. That process somehow added my misery. I was having a major roller-coaster mood swings caused by hormonal changes in my body.

Everything change during the first time I met my midwife, the lovely Ms Allison Allen. I was treated nicely and feel great again. I was given a lot of advices and become more confident about myself. I guess, my low self-esteem of becoming a good mother did effect my emotions.

I will never forget the first time I saw you. You was 11 weeks old that time. The moment I saw you move your little fingers in my womb was so special.. I saw your tiny heart beating and you were moving around actively, giving the practitioner a hard time to capture your picture. It's a miracle of life and it's a blessed for me to share the moment with your Dad.


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Let's talk about the food we've shared since the last 9 months.


Within the first 3 months, I can hardly eat any nutritious food for you. My nausea really killing me! The smell of the foods, especially garlic will make me sick. I thought I will die from dehydration due to 6-10 trips a day to the toilet, vomiting everything I ate. I can only accept fresh fruits, especially banana. Poor Daddy. He has to prepare foods for us. He became a good cook because of you.

I was craving Malaysian dishes all the time. I guess, you are truly a Malaysian though you are 100% made in UK. Hehe.. That actually gave your Dad a lot of trouble since he have to search every Asian grocery stores in Norwich just to fulfill my wish. (The list include Curry Maggie, roti paratha, rendang, satay and etc. etc. etc. )

I was so happy when it's time to be back in our hometown in Malaysia. One of the main reason is of course - the food. I gained about 5-7 kg's of my weight just within a month we're here! Can you believe that, baby? Your weight added too.. right?


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About our journey..

It's my childhood dream to travel around Europe, especially London, Paris and Rome. I'm more than satisfied to have it all fulfilled and what made it more special is I get to share it with you.

I know, it's not fair for you since your face is not in the pictures. Insya allah, one day the 3 of us we will come back to Europe again, collecting every piece of memories we've made there..



My Little Teddy,


You will be in my arms anytime now.. It's been a wonderful time, sharing everything with you since the past 9 months. A beautiful bonding between us and an unforgettable experience to share with your Daddy.

It's not the end of our journey together, instead.. it will be the beginning of our adventures.


I'm exhausted and anticipated. I'm too tired, clumsier and feeling heavier each day. I'm tired of this pregnancy and want to end it as soon as possible.. At the same time, I'm too afraid to think about the all the pain I will have to endure during labor. I'm not so tough and easily cried for small reason. I just pray and hope that everything will be fine.

Don't worry about me. I'm going to be all right. You can decide whether to stay longer in there for another 1 or 2 weeks or come out to see the world now. I will welcome you with the warmest hugs and kisses.



Love,
Mommy.