As a SAHM, I'm totally devoted my life to my family. I gave up my social life entirely long time ago after that decisian being made.
It has been 3 years now. Sometimes I feel like losing my self. Losing my mind. I forgot how it feels to be selfish. I forgot how it feels to pamper myself.
Some of my friends are gone. Maybe for good. I am out of league. It's no point to invite someone with 2 small kids to a get together party at a non-baby friendly places. Of course I will say no.
I started to build myself. Collecting pieces of me that being scattered away along the road to success. I struggle to learn new things. Things that will help me to remember that I am still useful to the world. Not just to my family.
It's not easy. The only me-time I got is when both my kids are asleep at night. Panda-looking eyes is my absolute new look.
My new obsession in android world did a great job in helping me to bounce back. I now feel that I'm useful again. Sharing unlimited knowledge and helping others. There are still tons to explore. Please forgive me dear Diary for ignoring you. I won't give up on you either.