Morning rambling

Morning Diary..

TGIF. Thank God It's Friday.
I feel a bit sleepy since I slept around 3am++ last night.

*yawn*

I realize that it seem like I neglected this blog lately.
My life is just as bored as I am.
Nothing interesting to write.

Sometimes it feels like I'm starting to lose myself.
I'm not sure who I really am
and what am I going to do with my own life.
Hopefully this is just temporary..
caused by this roller-coaster, pregnancy hormone breakdown.

I love my job as a full time mom.
I realize that it takes a lot of determination and courage to be here.
I know that there are A LOT to sacrifice.

Being a SAHM is all about giving..
with almost zero benefit in return.
No more social life.
No income.
No shopping desire.
almost no lust or craving for any expensive gastronomic meals.
..but a lot of unfulfilled, never ending wish list.

It's not that I completely gave up my dreams.
I do have some thoughts of joining the work force again
but not now..
I already gave myself a 5 years future planning.

Meanwhile
Just bear with me, Diary..
You are the most loyal friend of mine.
Although I prefer to keep every 'negative thoughts' to myself
but please don't give up on me.

Hopefully one day
I can see some silver lining in my grey clouds.
Hopefully
my future plan is soon to be realized.
(Though it takes years to achieve it).

Hopefully..

.amin.