The truth

Dear Diary..

I need drugs. Real kick ass drugs that can keep my eyes awake 24/7.
I need more energy to support my daily needs..
Not just being able to serve my family..
But for me, myself.. My own needs.

My mind keep telling me to get up and do something but every part of my body is going on a rebel.
To type this via phone while having both eyes open seem kinda hard to do as my half-concious mind going on and off in sleep mode.

To sleep means to waste my precious little time.
The only moment I got to do something that I enjoy.
My only me-time, when no body touching me..
No mouth to be fed..
No cries or shouting to be heard..
..and I finally get to be alone with my phone or pc..

It won't last for long as another few minutes/hours interval, my best moment will be disturb by my baby waking up in the middle of the night.

These things will past in another few years.
For now, I can only pray for Allah to have more mercy on my family and me.
I need to be stronger each day.
I need to take care of myself first..so that I can serve others.
I need to keep my mind focus and entertaint myself with things that made me happy.

The best treatment for now is my baby's smiles.
No matter how bad my day is, her smile never fails to make me feel better.
I have no excuse to feel bad about myself as I am blessed with a caring and understanding husband.
I am a lucky mom because my Teddy Jr. Is a brialiant young man.

Ok.
My time is out.
It's the regular interval disturbant.
Need to put my baby back to slumberland..

Teaser

What we did last Sunday..

Weekend activities

What we did last weekend..

17/18th March 2012

Pictures speak louder than words.. Don't they?



I need to blog again.
.BLOG.

*trying to hypnotize myself*

Happy 1st Birthday! - Elise

22nd March 2011 ~ 2012.

It has been a year now.
Happy 1st birthday, my dear girl..

My Little Lotus has taken her 1st, 5 little steps on her birthday.
What a great achievement!

She now can stand on her own for few seconds 

(until she realize that she's not holding onto something).
Has 5 sharp teeths,

loves books,

will shout with a high pitch voice when she's excited/happy,

and I call her an ultimate eating machine

as she always mouth everything.

Never say no to food.

Knows what she wants and communicate with me with her baby signs. 

(Took my hand & put it on something)
For example, if she wants me to read her a book, 

she'll drag my hand and put it on top of the book she chosen.

What a bright little girl she is..

Make us proud, young lady!
We love you so much..

Flash back to 1 year ago..

1st baby step - Elise

I owe you so much, dear Diary..

I missed writing so many great events happening around me.
I honestly think I need to do other things that seems more important than writing a blog.
I am sure I will regret this 1 day, when I desperately digging this blog to find something good to remember.
Truly sorry.

I forced myself to write this up because this is crucial for me to remember.

Elise has taken her 1st step yesterday - 17 March 20012.

In another 5 days, she'll turn 1.

She has 4 teeths n another 1 is coming out from her upper gum.
She loves books and will drag my hand to ask me to read it to her.
My Little Lotus is a bright little lady.
Mommy loves you so much dear darling..