1st Anniversary & others

I hate to skip my stories but laziness seems like celebrating its victory. I don't want to forget any important details of my life, especially all the interesting journey through out this year. It's almost new year 2009 but my story is still 'hanging' around September 2008.

Let me just highlight some important details and summarize it into photo blogging. Easier for me to remember. Hey, photo speaks louder than words right?



15 September 2008

Our last day in the UK

16 September 2008








1 day transit in Dubai. Hot + burning + exhausting day since we're fasting that time.









1~4 October 2008.

Aidilfitri 2008

No new baju kurung for me. I'm having a hard time struggling to wear the clothes that fit my growing baby bump. I end up borrowing my mother's loose baju kurung.

Did you watch me in Majalah 3 for Raya edition? I didn't. It was aired on the 4th day of raya, 4th October 2008. Click here for online version. (Majalah 3/episode 39/4 Oktober 08 - part 3). Unfortunately, you have to register first to watch it. Don't click the link if you are not motivated to do so.

Not only that, our picture was also out in the paper, Utusan Malaysia for the 'Salam Perantauan' section. hahaha.. Gila glamour right? Click here to see it.



2, 11 and 18 October 2008





Congratulations to the newly wed couples..

My dear childhood friend ~ Yati & Jebid (2 October 2008). She was so gorgeous that day and have my eyes green with jealousy on her pretty wedding dress. With that slim figure, she can absolutely wears anything and still look amazing with or without make up.

My beloved friend, Ayuni & Zaki (used to be my ex. hurmm?? hehe..) on the 11th of October 2008. Yes, we have a very unique and special relationship. We were big-time enemies at first but then became closer as we knew each other. How can you hate a person with a lovely character like hers? Trust me, you can't.

My cute panda lovers friend, Rudiah & partner (sorry dear, I didn't remember your hubby's name) on 18 October 2008. She needs to believe me that she looks sweeter without the specs and no dear.. your face didn't look 'tembam' at all without them.



15 November 2008


Finally, a new home! We rent a small apartment somewhere in Puchong. At first we plan to buy a perfect & cozy house for our small family but after considering the downtime of the world economy now, we postpone it for next time.

Thanks to A'an, Angah & Lily for visiting us at our new home. (20 December 2008)







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..Other important updates..



The nyanyaw(s)

They are more happier and healthy under my mom's supervision. My mom really loves them and they have become a part of our family.





Our little one




It's time for a countdown.. We are doing well. I'm lucky that I don't have any swollen feet or waddling my way through out the street. Back pain is common but not so torturing. I can still bear with it. Itchiness and stretch mark are the biggest problems. I have used up bottles of lotions, cocoa butters and baby oils but still can't really solve the problems. I just have to pray for God to have more mercy on my skin.

Pregnancy is a beautiful moment in life. It might occurs few times for the lucky ones but we will never know when or how. Since I can't freeze the time, I want to do something to capture this moment as a part of my journey through life's souvenir. I wanted to do a 3D or 4D scan but it's already too late. It must been done before week 32 or it will be almost impossible to view the baby since it's got too big and cramping your tummy. Another choice is making a belly casting but I'm not sure about this idea since I will find it disturbing and catching dust at home. I prefer a simple, modern home with less deco. No flowers or big, carved furniture.

The perfect solution is doing home made pregnancy portraits. Home studio. No DSLR or any special lighting effect. I'm more than satisfied and happy with the results.




..The Marriage..

Yesterday was our 1st Anniversary!

We have a romantic candle light dinner at home and Teddy bought a lovely bouquet of flowers for me.

(22 December '07~22 December '08)

To my beloved hubby @ Teddy..

Thank you for always being there for me

.. and always telling me how beautiful I am
.. and telling me the girl next to our table is fatter than me
(even though I know mostly it's a lie)
.. and open up the car's window quickly when you fart
.. and comfort me with your smiles
.. and hug me when I'm cold
.. and stand up my cooking
.. and laugh at my stupid jokes
.. and picking up the rubbish
.. and do the laundry
.. and kiss me at my forehead every night before I fall asleep
.. and make me happy everyday
.. and etc. etc. etc.

.. and I'm glad you are my husband. I love you so much!!

Happy 1st Anniversary..

Updates

Hi there my dear diary.. It's been almost 3 months since the last update. I'm sorry but I can't help myself from being too excited for being home and too busy to adapt with the surrounding here. (Plus, I have no internet connection except gprs from my phone. I hope that will explain everything.)

Not sure where to start. Maybe within 8 days from my last countdown?

12th September 2008

Last view of my favorite little town, Norwich city center. We took a walk around the town and enjoyed every moments there, breathing the fresh cold air.. Snapping every pictures and little details there in our memory, hoping that it will stay fresh forever in our mind.




(Left) Cafe Nero. Our life-saver during cold, rainy spring (First outing in town last March 2008)




(Right) Chappelfield Garden. I used to ignore the brutal wind and cold weather just to sit there on that bench, enjoying the free wireless connection. Not to forget, the fresh air and colorful flowers around me during spring.. plus, our first snow experience there!











14th September 2008

1 day before our journey ended. It's Lotus open day. I was excited to see the place where Teddy has been working for the last 6 months. It was one of his biggest achievement. I wanted to see the final product of his 'Eagle project'.

Here I present you, the stylish Lotus Evora! I'm proud of my Teddy..





.. to be continue ..

Journey completed!!

8 more days to go..

Our journey here almost come to an end.

15th March - 15th September 2008.
Norwich, UK


"Too many to remember
All the sweet and unforgettable memories
will be kept forever
in our heart.."


Love,
Isa Yassir Arafat & Ilyana

I will always cherish every moments here as a part of my journey through life. More than satisfied with a fulfilled childhood dream. It's more than what I have asked for. A perfect little life with my beloved Teddy, exploring this world together. We have conquered some part of Europe (Paris & Rome).. and almost all part of England.. including Scotland and more to come, soon. Insya Allah..

I'm excited to be back home in Malaysia.. to smell the fresh hot air in my beloved hometown.. to eat everything that I've craved for without having any difficulties to make them.. to meet my families and friends (including my nyanyaws) that I miss everyday.. and to begin a new family life with a new home and environment. It won't be easy, but hopefully everything will be doing smoothly according to plan.

At the same time, I'm sure will be missing this place. A fine city called Norwich somewhere in East England. Unthank Road, Chappelfield Garden, Castle Mall, Bowthorpe, etc. etc. etc. I will never forget our first snow experience, last Spring.. 22nd March 2008. It's amazing to wake up early in a cold morning and open up the window blind to see everything white in colour. Still fresh in my mind how we shivered with cold during our walk in town and a cup of hot chocolate at Cafe Nero was our life saver!

What I love most about Britain are the people here. British people are always warm and friendly. It's hard to find anyone rude to you (except when you are driving) and shopping experience will never be better here. It doesn't really matter how little you spend because you will be treated properly as a customer. Strangers will smile back at you and sometime say hi to you with a friendly face. You will hardly (or can I say, never??) find that in Malaysia. If you do that, people will react with a weird face with 'Do I know you?' impression.

British weather is just nice, but my body still can't really cope with the strong, heavy wind. I love cold weather but it will be nicer without the wind (and with some sunny spells, of course). The weather here is unpredictable and sometimes you have to depend on the weather forecast to plan for a holiday or even for BBQ in the garden. Mostly it will be cold and windy and during summer, a lot of rain.. Back in Malaysia, you just have to expect either it's going to be a hot or rainy day. You can plan for your holiday anytime, except during rainy season (Musim tengkujuh) in some part of Malaysia. You will see the sun almost 12 hours a day and that's why you can find a lot of Malaysian HATE the sun. The idea of 'sun bathing' on the beach can be define as 'crazy' unless if you want to be burnt red like a lobster if you do that on Malaysian beach. We don't have to do that because we always have a tan.. and yes, we want to be fairer.

Enough mumbling. I want to share about our Euro Trip in Paris & Rome. Not to forget, journey to The South England too.


Dear Diary, Please remember this..



24th August 2008 (It's our 3rd Anniversary before we got married)


Departure : 19.25pm

Flight to Paris with EasyJet. My first experience using Airbus (Just like Air Asia in Malaysia). Almost 1 hour journey from Luton Airport to Charlles de Gaulle Airport in France. Free seating and don't expect to find anything fancy like a LCD screen for movies. The landing experience was horrible since we can obviously feel the heavy force when the tyres meet the ground. I was shouting "O mak ko!!" (sempat melatah tu..) and few passengers did shout a bit.. then, burst out with laughter when the plane finally surf safely on the ground. Maybe it's normal, but I didn't prepare mentally and physically for that.


Arrival : 21.45pm

Took a cab straight to the hotel, Premiere Classe Roissy. €22 for the cab fares.



25th August 2008


Bonjour, Paris! We started our journey early in the morning using a 'Gare' (pronounce as Gahr, means Train). There's a RER station (something like LRT or STAR in Malaysia) near our hotel, station 'Gare du Parc des Exposition'.

Dear diary, it's important to remember things like this because we might come here again some other time, right? It was so convenient because it's just a walking distance from the Hotel and can go straight to the Airport using B3 RER line.


It was a beautiful day. Bright, sunny day with small breeze and clear blue skies. Not much things to explore than to admire the great architecture of Eiffel Tower (1 of my childhood dream to witness the beauty live with my own eyes) and the beautiful Arc de Triomphe. Other than that, we just took a walk around Paris, holding hands together and enjoying the breathtaking view of one of the most romantic city in the world (Actually it doesn't really matter where you are, as long as you are with your loved ones, right?). I was sooo.. on top of the world to be there. It was just like what I have dreamt of. Blue skies, green grass, holding hands with my loved ones.. and there's Eiffel Tower standing proudly in front of us. I'm blessed!

Paris, here we are!!

We had a great time in Paris, although just for a very limited period of time. We have to hurry back and catch the Gare back to CDG (Charles de Gaulle) Airport. Another interesting journey await us ahead..


Departure : 18.05pm

2 hours flight from Paris, CDG Airport to Rome, FCO (Fiumicino) Airport using Vueling. The flight experience was better except for the heavy vibration during take off.


Arrival : 20.05pm

Took a cab to the hotel, Hotel Chopin. Surprisingly, we had to pay €65 (approximately RM300++) for the cab fares! It's just 5-10 minutes driving from the Airport. Not sure either we had been cheated or we took the luxury cab by mistake. (Not so luxury for me since it's an Alfa Romeo!) My advice, be more careful when you want to take a cab in Rome. From the FCO Airport to Rome city center should not cost more than €40 (Source, Faz). Ask her if you are interested to travel in Rome since she's a local there! hehehe...

Our room costs us €70 per night but I was relief to find that it really worth it. It was a big honeymoon suite and doesn't smell funny like most of the hotels in London ;p





26th August 2008

Buongiorno, Rome! We went back to the FCO Airport to take the non-stop train to the Termini Station (€11 per person).

We took a bus from Termini Station to Piaza Venezia. This square is located in the heart of Rome, at the end of the Via del Corso (it's the name for the road. Correct me if I'm wrong, Faz!). If you take a walk along Via del Corso, you can see some of the Rome's famous sight such as The Pantheon and Fontana de Trevi.

It was a very hot summer in Rome. We decided to head straight Via del Fori Imperiali to reach our main destination, the famous ancient amphitheater.. Roman Colosseum. We passed by a lot of well-preserved ancient ruins but sadly I can't identify them (obviously because I'm bad in my History subject in school and didn't do enough research about that). So, please.. be well-prepared with your history knowledge before you come here! hehe..

I was melting and exhausted when we finally reached the Colosseum. It's extremely hot and I can say it's hotter than 12 o'clock sun in Malaysia. I really can't stand the heat and decided to put off our plan to see Fontana de Trevi and other attractions in Rome. Hopefully we can come here again some other time, and I will make sure that it's not going to be during Summer!

The Colosseum was so huge and it felt amazing to be there, to witness another famous world center of attraction. This elliptical building was built for gladiatorial contests and public spectacles.

Did you see that? My bump started to show.. I guess, I can't hide it anymore. Hehehe..

Teddy was exhausted too..

Rome is a beautiful place with a lot of ancient buildings. You will definitely be amazed with all the architectures and statues, especially if you are an art lover. Don't forget to try the delicious pastas and pizzas here! (Try Penne all'arrabiata if you are a fan of spicy food + vegetarian).


27th August 2008

Back in London. Exhausted and head straight to the Hotel near Heathrow Airport for some rest.


28th August 2008

Gain enough energy to begin another journey to the South England. Our first destination, the Windsor Castle. South West London, just 10-15 minutes driving from Heathrow Airport. Windsor Castle is the largest inhabited castle in the world.

It was so huge that we had to take about 20 minutes walk along 'The Long Walk' (a park opposite the South Wing part of the castle) to take a good view of the castle.



We drove more to the South to see the Stonehenge. It's one of the famous prehistoric monument in the world. Click here to find out more about Stonehenge.




Our journey to the South continue as we headed to Bournemouth.


29th August 2008

A beautiful day on the beach. It's Bournemouth Air Festival. The air show was quite boring except for the Red Arrows. The weather was fine and I enjoy walking along the white, sandy beach with Teddy. The sea water was as cold as our Malaysian waterfall and I wouldn't dare to bath there.


It's the end of our journey here. To complete it, we went back to London to take a last good view of London Tower Bridge.



Ok.. Journey completed!! It's time to go home.. ;)

Spiral Curry Puff & Euro Trip

Spiral curry puff? It's actually 'karipap pusing' in Malay. Yesterday I did my first ever spiral curry puff. Not bad actually (for a first timer like me. hehe..). Thanks to Elly for showing me how to make the 'kelim' or closure for the curry puff. I know, I know.. it look like dinosaur's spikes. Ugly but I'm more than satisfied. It's one of the hardest 'kuih' or traditional malay cookies that I have ever made.

I won't be around for the next 1 week. I want to complete my Euro trip journey before I'm going back to Malaysia. Back for good, of course. Wait for another journey updates later, ok?

Journey to the North

27 days to go. Countdown time! I'll be back for good. Too little time, too much to explore.

Last weekend (15-17 August 2008) we went to the North of England. Actually, we didn't plan it at first. It just popped out from my head since we didn't have any plan for the weekend.

Remember our last trip? Journey to the West of England (Norwich - Birmingham - Manchester - Liverpool). That was 2-3 months ago. After that, I was being quarantine at home since my health condition didn't allow me to travel. My nausea really killing me!

I'm now in a 'safe pregnancy stage'. My nausea slowly gone and I'm strong enough to do a lot of things (except dealing with garlic). My pregnancy glow started to show and my mood swings are more controllable. Thank God. Alhamdulillah.

We started our trip on Friday (15 August 2008), around 4pm. Arrived at Bewick Hotel, Newcastle around 9.30pm. Check in for a good night rest.

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Saturday (16 August 2008), 7:00am - Full English Breakfast. Eggs, tomatoes, mushrooms and baked beans (without bacon and sausages of course!). Not to forget, orange juice and toast. Simple but delicious (..somehow I still miss nasi lemak and karipap for breakfast).


9:00 am - Check out. Headed a little bit South to see the famous Angel of the North, Gateshead. It is Britain's largest sculpture and believed to be the world's largest angel sculpture. It rises 20 metres and has a wing span of 54 metres - almost as big as a jumbo jet.



11:30 am - Arrived at Alnwick Castle, Nortumberland. Famous as the 'Hogwart', film location for Harry Potter, the Philosopher's Stone & Chamber of secret. It's huge and full with every little details inside. I was amazed with all the spectacular artworks, from the silk wallpaper, antique clock (still ticking), beautiful furnitures to the heavily crafted ceilings.


2:30 pm - Finally, arrived at Edinburgh, Scotland. It was cloudy with some sunny spells to remind us that it's still summer. Cold, windy summer. Again, I was stunned with all the beautiful and unique buildings there. I bet it's more beautiful than London. Our short vacation was really worth it! The journey to the North now completed.

11:30 pm - After a very long, tiring drive from Scotland, we arrived at Holiday Inn, Leeds.


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Sunday (17 August 2008), 9:30 am - Another English Breakfast. Buffet with additional delicious hash brown and fresh fruits.

11:00 am - Check out, headed back to South and stopped for some shopping at Nottingham.


3:00 pm - Continue journey along M1 motorway to the South, stopped at Kirby Muxloe in Leicester. A nice, small castle surrounded by water.

5:30 pm - Headed back to Norwich. Arrived home around 7pm. Exhausted but we were glad that we finally made it! Our final last days in England will be fully used to the max and wait until we explore the rest of interesting places in Europe, next week..


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** Updates for my little one **


Today is the first time I hear your heartbeat. My midwife is having difficulty to track your heartbeat since you move a lot. What an active baby you are!

I can feel little movements inside this morning. Is it really you?

My midwife, the lovely Ms. Allison Allen told me that I'm not immunize with Rubella. I thought that every young girl in Malaysia, including me is already vaccinated. That worries me a bit. Hopefully everything going to be alright. Stay strong and grow up healthily dear baby..

Raya abroad?

No, you don't have to double check your calendar. It's still August.. 12 Syaaban 1429. Not yet Ramadhan, and Syawal is still 1++ month to go.

Wondering why there were 'raya cookies' on top of my kitchen table? It's neither for sale nor booking sample. Last Tuesday, we made 'honey cornflakes' and 'kek batik' (It's quite messy in the picture above, but believe me.. it's yummy!).

It's actually for a special event yesterday, (13 August 2008). TV3 team from Malaysia came here to Norwich and did some shooting for their Raya program. We were asked to make Raya wishes to family & friends in Malaysia and act for a Raya celebration, abroad. It's a great experience and I found it really amusing especially the part where the cameraman and Majalah3 host, Nurul Syuhada ask us to sing a Raya song before the wishes. I really hope that it won't appear on TV.. It will be sooo humillating since I'm already at home in Malaysia during Raya. hehe.. Sorry peeps, I just can't help myself from being more glamour than you guys! ;p



What I'm really excited about that was the foods! (Despite being glamour and being able to meet Nurul Syuhada, Dato' Farid Ridzuan, CEO of TV3 and Zuhairah @ Ira, News presenter from TV9). There were nasi impit, kuah kacang, lontong, ayam masak merah, rendang, beriani, karipap, popia, cakes, and of course.. our special raya cookies (We received a lot of compliments for our effort in making those cookies and the superb taste). I was stuffing myself to the max and didn't care what people said about that. I'm eating for two.. It's an acceptable reason, right? It's not that I'm hungry or craving those foods. I'm just missing the taste of 'Malaysian'. I enjoy meeting a lot of Malaysian and sharing stories about my weight loss. (They said I look thinner than before!). Teddy was enjoying himself also.. stuffing himself with delicious lontong.

Before that they (TV3 team) made a documentary about Proton workers in Lotus. It will be aired on Majalah3 this 31st August and there might be a glimpse of my Teddy on it! hehe..

Sizzling Yee Mee & homegrown strawberry

Carrying your first baby is not a simple task. Every mother should knows this fact. I'm not lucky enough to escape from morning sickness and depression during pregnancy. My body was too weak during the first trimester and being quarantine at home is absolutely not my choice. Our trip to Scotland was canceled I have to be on my bed all the time.

I'm a clingy & spoiled wife. Yes, I don't deny it. Despite of being weak all the time, it's great to have Teddy as my hubby. Let's look at the bright site. Teddy did most of the cooking now (why? ..because almost all Malaysian dish will start with onion & garlic). Didn't I told you earlier, the smell of the kitchen made me sick? I can't smell garlic, onion, cooked meat, fish, prawns.. etc. etc. etc. All of the sudden I became a vegetarian.

Teddy became a good cook. He made a variety of foods and some of them were 'soto' (complete with 'nasi impit' and 'begedil'), 'ayam masak kunyit' (chicken tumeric), tomyam, paprik (Thai food), bihun soup, stir fried mix vege, 'sambal kupang' (mussels with chillies), porridge.. etc. etc. etc.

My food craving didn't end there. Last weekend, I ask Teddy to make a chinese food, 'sizzling yee mee' for me. I did help actually (finding the recipe on the net). hehe..

Here are some pictures. It came out very good and the taste was as good as the one sold at Giant, Puchong. hehe.. Thanks Teddy! Next week boleh order lagi..






It is harvesting time for our homegrown strawberry. One of the fruit has ripen and we were so excited about that. We will never get this chance to grow our own strawberry back in Malaysia (unless if we buy a home somewhere in Cameron Highland).

A tribute to my baby

I'm sorry if I'm not going to be a good mom. Everyone thinks that I hate you. No, I'm not! In fact.. I do love you in a way that I can never put it into words. It's a beautiful bonding that only you can understand. I won't be a perfect mom, but I will try to be the best.

I'm sorry if I didn't take good care of you. I didn't care to take enough nutrition for you. I have a bad time digesting foods that are good for you. I'm trying my best, stuffing myself with what ever that I can. I won't let you starve with hunger..

It's quite difficult for me to accept the fact that I'm carrying you inside me.. but it's easy for me to accept you. It's 2 different things with different meaning. I suffer from a breakdown and people around me who don't understand will only add up my misery. How I wish to shut their mouth and please let me be alone by myself. I don't need their advice.


Dear Baby,


(If you are a girl)

To my baby, Elisa..

Your Daddy gave you this beautiful name. Actually it's based on a car's name, Lotus Elise. Oh, don't feel bad about it.. Elisa for me is a nice name. I will either call you Elly or Lisa.

Elly is a great friend of mine. I want you to be as good and as loyal as your aunt Elly. She always be by my side and we always have a good time together. You might not have her beautiful eyes but I hope that you will have all her good character. Her cheerful words and bright smiles will always lighten up my day. You will grow up as a fine girl and gain a lot of good friends. As long as you treat people like you want to be treated, you will never have any problem with your friends. Trust me!

Elisa.. Elly - Sara. I have another good old friend named Sara. You will always remember your Aunt Sara because both of you will share the same Birthday. (It might not be exactly the same, but the days will be close to 23rd of Jan). I want you to be as strong as your Aunt Sara and be brave at the same time. There is no obstacles in the world can hurt you as long as you know who you really are. Keep the high spirit and always remember that mommy will always support you from behind.

My Baby Elisa,

I have a lot of great friends. Ayun, Lily, Shu, Yati, Ayu, Fara, Limah, Mimi, A'an, Faza, Miza, Faz, Fiza, Hirda, Shamil, Bai, Uji, Sabil, Mek etc. etc. etc. (To Ally a.k.a Fadzly, if you are reading this.. please note that I only state female's name here, ok? hehe..) I can't named you after them 1 by 1 because you will have a hard time remembering your own name. Elisa binti Isa Yassir Arafat is just nice for you.

I always imagine that you will have a pair of sweet dimple like your Daddy. I want your hair to be long and smooth like mine so that I can clip it with a pair of beautiful butterflies hair clips every morning, before you go to school. I wish you will inherit my artistic talent and brain as genius as your daddy.

I want you to know that how lucky you are to be there on your mom's and dad's wedding. You will be wearing a beautiful baby dress and I will make a ring of flowers to be your crown on that day. You will be the witness of one of the most historical day of my life. I can guarantee that most of your friend won't be as lucky as you are, my dear..



(If you are a boy)

To my baby, Kimi..

I'm proud to say that I gave you this name. It's a cute name and based on my favourite F1 racer, Kimi Raikonen. I know that your dad is not too happy with this name but after a few argument, I let him choose another name for you. Until now he still didn't come out with any good name for you and I will stick to my own decision.. It will be Kimi (xxxxxx) bin Isa Yassir Arafat. Don't worry dear baby, give your dad some time to decide your name. We have another 6 months++ to think about this.

I want you to be just like your Daddy so that I can call you my Little Teddy. Your Dad is a great man and he always support me with all his heart. His heart is as pure as crystal and your can see right through in it. His honesty and care always keep my heart warm with his love. I can't imagine how wonderful it will be to have another person like you to love me like that.

You will be a sweet little boy, also with a pair of your daddy's dimple. Don't be too sad if you don't have them.. Girls will still be crazy about you as I do crazy about your Dad. Just be yourself and grow up to be a fine young man.

Your Dad used to be so creative when he was a little boy. He invented a lot of toys by his hand and he made money out of it. Maybe you can ask him a few good tips and I will just observe both of you quietly.

I wish both of you will have the same interest and I will be glad if you can accompany him to every motorshow events or race in Sepang. If you do love it, do it in a correct way. I don't want any of my son to end up as a 'mat rempit'.

About our wedding, it will be held few months after you are born. You will wear a nice baby suit with a red rose in your pocket. You will be the most adorable baby on that day and be prepared with all the kisses you will be getting from all my guest.




p/s: I won't give you this link to my blog. It's up to you to find it on your own. By that time, you'll be laughing, "Mommy's English is sooo bad!! My mom is too emotional.." I don't care what will you say then.. I just want you to know that.. "I love you"

Another tribute to an old friend

Finally, I got the blog link that I've been searching for more than a year.. It's not another ordinary blog. It's a blog from an important friend. It used to keep me updated with all her ups and down but since I change/formatted my PC occasionally, I've lost all the bookmarks.

Friends.. they come and go. Some will always be with you, but some will only remain in your heart as a part of your colorful memories. Good memories are meant to be kept as treasures in the life archive.. but as a human, we tend to remember all the bad stuffs happened to us. It will be haunting your life forever and sometimes can erase all the good memories. Treasure box will remain empty unless you are brave enough to fight with your own feelings and burn down your ego. It's up to you.

I choose to live with my own stupidity and maintaining my ego as long as I can. I feel like a winner and everyone is supporting me. It's like a good revenge and I can feed on it as long as I'm alive.

I was wrong. I will never be a winner when I have this guilty feeling inside me. I will never be happy when I realize that I made someone else suffer because of me. I will always be wondering what is it like if I'm the one in her shoes..


There are some confessions that I would like you to know.

I'm so damn jealous of what you have achieve.

1st, you made it to Japan. You always know how badly I wanted to further my studies in overseas. You made it first. I always regret the day that I failed to go to the interview with you. Oh please, don't say any Japanese words to me. I don't understand any of it. It made me feel bad.. really!

2nd, you found your soul mate that is perfect for you. By that time, I'm still searching and being dumped over and over again. That explained why I always avoid to share anything about my relationships because I hate the fact that I won't be able to share your happiness. How can I pretend to be happy for you when I'm in so much misery? I know, I'm being selfish..

3rd, you found a lot of new great friends there in Japan. I can't be around you every time like them. I just can pray that they will take a good care of you while I'm not around.

4th, you still can maintain your body and I can't deny the fact that you are still as beautiful as before. I went all the way through my ups and down and gaining more weight is not an option for me. It's obvious, no body (especially woman) want to be teased about their body.

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I hope that will explain everything.

I enjoy my revenge but it didn't last for long. I have this strong burden that I have to carry everyday. It became heavier when I heard stories about you.



I do understand you. I know your words can be sharper than blade but it didn't give me any wound before. I guess.. I used to be immune with that. Time made us apart and we grew up in a different environment. My immunization has completely gone and I will bleed easily. So, please.. please do something about this. I think both of us are mature enough to handle this kind of situation.

I always keep track about you, secretly. I want to know how you are doing. I want to see every important details in your life. How I wish to whisper secretly, while we are alone in a room and ask about your experience during your 'first night' and have a good tease about it. How I wish I can scream to your ears, how glad I am to see your beautiful baby. It's my ego that will never let me to do that. It's my own stupidity.

I know that my stupidity won't give us any good. Please accept my deepest, sincere apology. Forgive me for what I've done. Let's turn over a new leaf and I hope for a brighter future to fill in our memory box..

Strawberry farm, new sandal & truck attack

Saturday (26 July 2008)

We went to a PYO (Pick Your Own) farm near Lotus cars Ltd, Norwich. We had a great time picking the strawberries. They were small and not in a perfect shape (like the one sold in supermarket) but they were sweet and delicious!



Summer sales at Clark! Grab a pair of hot pink sandal for £20.. Yes, I'm a pink freak.



Sunday (27 July 2008)

Went to Donington Park Circuit (near Leicester) to see the Truck Attack. It was very unusual to see a race between big monsters like that. I'd love to see more but unfortunately I can't handle the weather. It was too hot and I'm almost fainted because of the sun. My body is still too weak to stand that kind of pressure.

Another journey to remember

Last Saturday (19th July 2008), Teddy, me and Eli (Teddy's colleague) went to the Great Yarmouth. We passed by an old wind turbine (didn't manage to get the picture) with a wonderful country sight background along the way there.

It's already summer, but I'm still shivering with cold. I can't help myself from missing the nice, hot & sunny weather in my hometown, Malaysia. My body still can't cope with this British weather.

Great Yarmouth is a lovely, clean beach with so many attractions. A lot of gambling and gaming machine along the road, just like Genting Highland in Malaysia. With this kind of unpredictable weather.. you can't really enjoy the beach. That's why you can choose to accompany yourself with other interesting activities here.



Sunday (20th July 2008), we went to the Snetterton Circuit for the Lotus Celebration day. There were four races for the Lotus on Track Elise Trophy. Support races include the magnificent GT Cup, with nearly 30 supercars including Ferrari, Porsches and Aston Martin. It was a dramatic race since there were a lot of accidents involving a lot of cars that day. Oh yes, I screamed when 2 Feraris crash in front of my eyes. This racers must be crazy, rich people with nothing to do with their money I guess.. And the winner was a Bimmer! Congrats to the driver.. who ever you are.. hehe..

My little miracle

I passed my critical first trimester stage with 'not-so-flying colors', this week. Living my everyday-boring-housewife life at home, doing the same things over and over again.

Being pregnant is a huge task for me. I'm not that kind of women who are on top of the world when they get the positive sign from the pregnancy test kit. I'm totally confused and scared.


Week 6

I fell sick after we got back from Birmingham. I thought, maybe I'm just too exhausted. I can't get up from my bed and hardly eat anything for about 1 whole week. I will throw up everything accept banana.


Week 7

1st doctor appointment. I was given folic acid and my doctor asked me to fight the morning sickness naturally. Naturally?? I guess I will be suffering for another 3-4 weeks.. I started to hate many kind of foods. I hate chicken, prawn, burger, fish, vegetables.. The smell of the foods really made me sick! Luckily I can still eat fresh fruits. No wonder I lost 7kg's of my weight..


Week 8-10

Blame it on the hormones. I'm feeling down all the time. Depressed. Still can't accept the fact that there is a little miracle growing inside me. Morning sickness add up my misery. I can't understand why people around me accept the news with joy.. and I'm not?? That explained why I took some time to break the news here.


Week 11

1st baby scan. I'm not so excited about the scan. I'm afraid that they won't find anything inside my tummy. It's hard for me to believe that I'm pregnant until that moment.. The moment I saw a tiny heartbeat beating inside me. I saw the baby moving his/her hands actively. I'm totally speechless. Can't explain my feeling that time but I kept on looking at the scan picture over and over again. Still so small (4-5 cm) but so lovely! Motherly instinct, I guess? Me? a mother? (still full with question marks until now)

Oh Happy Days..

Saturday, 5 July 2008


Lord Mayor Celebration at Norwich city center. It was a colourful and lively street all day long. I guess I'm more than lucky to celebrate it with all the citizens here.

I will never forget how fun it was to try the folk dance in the middle of Norwich street. It was great! I will never forget the feeling I felt inside me every time when I start moving along with the music beat.. I used to be a traditional dancer & I love every memory I had as a dancer.


Fun Fair at Chappelfield Garden

I really enjoy the big crowd & cheerful fun fair lights. There were a lot of games to try on. We managed to get 2 lovely soft toys!


..and I will never forget the bright and breathtaking view of fireworks from on top of the Norwich Castle.. 2 more months to go and I know that I will miss this place for sure!!



It's time to break the news..

I'm gonna have a baby!! My baby will be due around end of January 2009 and might be sharing this important date with my dear friend, Maisarah..

Looking forward to meet you, my little one!

Updates.. (after some short laaazy break)

After failing some few attempts to update this diary (click on 'add new entry' & just leave it blank for 1 whole day hoping that it will automatically absorb what inside my brain & updating itself), I finally get my lazy ass to TYPE something here. pheww.. atlast..

hurmm.. where should I start?

14th May 2008

Disaster. My dear laptop crashed. I accidentally dropped it. It's the table's fault! Can I sue the table's manufacturer for providing such a bad product like that? Why didn't they mount the glass properly into the table's frame?

I spent my days doing useless things.. wondering around the house like crazy. Watch every stupid shows on the TV, bought story books from the charity shop & finished reading 568 pages in 1 day.. I realize that internet & laptop is everything to me. I will go nuts if I can't go online more than 1 week. It's true.. believe me!

I hate Twinhead Malaysia! 

It's still under warranty but I knew that there is NO service center for Twinhead in the UK. The nearest is France. When I mailed them about my problem,  I received a reply, "There's no cervice center in UK". That's all?

I already knew that!! Didn't solve my problem at all. 

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Let me share with you about my journey from East to West England (Norwich - Manchester - Liverpool - Birmingham)

Nah.. too long to write. Maybe just some summary so that I won't forget that experience. Photo blogging would be the best way to explain it. 

24 May 2008 (Saturday)

Depart from Norwich. Stop at Hope Valley, Peak District to enjoy the breathtaking green scenery from Peveril Castle. 

.. continue our journey to Manchester. Old Trafford, the Theater of Dreams. We are not really a Red Devil fan, but it's great to be here at this legendary stadium, maybe.. once in a lifetime. We met a lot of Malaysian there & suddenly I felt like home because I can hear Malay language spoken everywhere. I guess a lot of Malaysian love MU.. is it? 

25th May 2008

We went the the West side of England, Liverpool. Our 1st destination was the Anfield Stadium. I love the phrase at their logo, " You'll never walk alone". 

.. straight to Albert Dock, 1 of the main tourist attraction in Liverpool. Wondering around Liverpool city and really enjoy the colorful & lively street there. There were street performance everywhere.. entertainers, clowns, dancers.. 

26th May 2008

On our way back to Norwich. Stop at Birmingham. Enjoy walking at The Canal to Birmingham city center. Huge shopping area, but the weather was not very good & too windy.

Arrived at Norwich around 7pm that day. Fell sick for about 1 week after that. 

I'm exhausted & dying without my laptop. 

Ok, let's look about the bright sight.. I got a new Toshiba laptop from Teddy! hehe.. It's the best medicine I ever had. Thanks cayang.. I yeb yu.. muahss..muahss..!!

Owh.. and as a result from my sickness, I lost about 3-4 kg's of my weight. 

21st June 2008 

I'm all alone. Going to be alone for more than 1 week. Teddy went to Spain to test the new Lotus car performance. Already miss him.. 

Take care! Balik cepat2 bawa suvenier tau..