A1GP & Pinky AnGeL

Dear diary,

You've missed so many important events lately.. I am sorry that I don't have the time to tell you my story everyday just like before. I have forgotten some of the important dates and lost some of my precious pictures.

F1 this season has completed last October but I didn't blog about it because my Kimi didn't won any race. His highest achievement was 2nd place (Italy & Australia GP). Honestly I'm quite disappointed with him and hope he will do better with Ferrari next season.

To Teddy, please accept the fact that he will be driving Ferrari, not Schumy anymore.. hehe..

24th Nov - I gave Teddy roses for our 'monthly anniversary'. (I never give flowers to any guy before this)

26th Nov - A1 GP @ Sepang circuit. Alex Yoong got the 7th place. It was raining cats and dogs before the race started that day . Teddy was so cute wearing his slipar jepun, 'borrowed' from a mosque at Shah Alam. (ntah bila la nak pulangkan balik tu..hehe)


Date : unknown (November)

atlast.. Thanx to Teddy. Akhirnya, impian ilyana tercapai. hehe.. (no comment. Just view the image below) *wink*wink*




8th & 9th Dec 2006

Congratulations to my dear childhood friend, Juliana for her wedding.. She's so lovely in her green wedding dress (mine would be PINK of course nanti.. hehe..) Met my ex there with his wife. Aku nyuruk masuk bilik pengantin tinggalkan Teddy kat luar teman my mom n sis makan. hehe.. Sorry Teddy!! Hurmm.. what can I say? That guilty feeling is still haunting me. I left him after 2 years relationship for someone else I thought better than him. (That 'someone else' tu pun dah kawen now). No, I don't think it was a mistake after all. I am much-much happier now with Teddy.



almost forgotten something, .. "Time To Change!!! "

ermm..

i hope it's not 2 late to wish u guys 'SLAMAT HARI RAYA'.. My blog is still alive and I never have a thought to close this blog or write "goodbye, this is my last entry.." or senyap sunyi sepi camtu je. It's just a rare syndrome called 'akumalasnakmemblog' menyerang aku lately ni.

(take a deep breath)

ok..

hmmm...

what to write huh?

errr...

korang (kepada sesiapa yg berkenaan) , bayar bil la weh!! Aku tak larat nak kuar duit beratus2 lagi utk bayarkan utang korang. asik kene potong je tpon+streamyx kita.. huAaaa....!!!

well..blog is made to lepas ur tension right??

contribution to casa heaven (http://casaheaven.blogspot.com)

It's Ramadhan again.
I miss our kopitiam sessions at As-salam every sahur.
I miss every hot topic we discuss to put in 'that blog'.
I miss Nantha the macha.
I miss those old blogs (currently have been closed) that we used to love so much.
I miss those bloggers that we knew since we started blogging.

I still remember the most 'hot entry' that time was the 'bloginson syndrome' from wong ah beng. We used to chat about that entry and have a good laugh since that topic 4 sure 'kene batang hidung sendiri'.

and.. Yes, we used to suffer the worst case of bloginson syndrom at that time. We spent hours in front of our PC's just to modify our blog appearance or made our own blog skin (as u can see it here..this skin is made for hours ok???!)

Suddenly we were expert in HTML and tagging people was very fun that time..that time ok? If u tag me now, no fun lg ok?? Malas dah nak buat tag2 ni..

but mostly..I miss u guys! Nina, Iris, Hana..

no more Q's please

I am not working but still..I'm not unemployed. I am heading toward my dream job and this is the only way for me. Unfortunately, not the fastest way.

No more Q's please.

Langit mendung

yeah..right guys. Langit tak selalunya cerah. Hari ni langit nampak mendung. Macam hati aku. I should have take the highway..faster is better. ..but then.. the only road for me just that small kampung road. Better be more careful. Nanti terlanggar ayam kampung lagi. Have to stop so many times.. increase the delays. They just want me to arrive there faster. They never know what holding me back here. Yes, there are options for me to speed up but I'm afraid I will get lost.

Hope my feet are still strong to walk trough my journey. Hope my heart will continue beating although sometimes I forgot to breath.

Not to forget, condolence to my dearest nina for her lost. Al-Fatihah to her mom..

Another year and counting...

Happy b'day to my dear ex-rumet..



Nina a.k.a Fuzz

Wishing u all the best in ur life.

p/s : aku teringat kenangan ni..last year..

Anniversary, MME 2006, Merdeka and paintball..

So much to write..too many events in a week.

24th August 2006

at last.. setahun dah relationship aku ngan Teddy. Antara r/ship yg paling lama bertahan. Al-hamdulillah.. Sempena menghormati kes mawiina, we'r having cat fight too.. PMS kot. Smbt anniversary pun tak mcm anniversary. Adiah pun lambat bagi. Sorry Teddy!!

Teddy gave me 2 nice presents for our ann.. perfume bedelicious DKNY (i'm dying to get that perfume for more than 1 year) and a nice butterfly necklace.. (so that I won't ungkit bout rantai butterfly yg he gave to his sazzy anymore). Thanx shayang!!! I love you so very2 much!!!

26th Aug 2006


MME (Merdeka Millenium Endurance) race at Sepang circuit.. 12 hours race. Go tengku Djan!! Bertahan dari kul 12 mlm-5pg je.. Tak larat weh.. Sejok!! ujan lebat.. Nasib baik lotus no 12 tu menang gak. Penat sokong dia.. Waja menang 3rd place utk class C. Hebat gak kereta Waja ni kan? Tp sure dah modified gile2 punye la.. Team X-1R..satria, tak dpt completekan race. 50 kereta je dari 77 dpt completekan race ni. 12 jam beb.. Dahla hujan lebat gile mlm tu.


p/s: scoreboard tu bukti aku kt situ smpi 4.47 a.m.. hehe.. (12 - Lotus, 10 - porche, 17 - skyline)


31st Aug 2006

Merdeka!! 2nd time we celebrate Merdeka together.. Putrajaya, mana lagi.. This year punya Merdeka tak meriah langsung. Last year, crowded gile.. jem betul jln. Thn ni kosong je putrajaya tu. Heran aku.

(aku suka gmbr ni sbb teddy nmpk gemuk n aku nmpk kurus..ahahahhaa...)

p/s : Happy bday to Hana..



Place : Tmn Harmoni - Gombak..
Time : 10.00 a.m - 1.00 p.m

Temankan Teddy main paintball (Savoc v/s Gen2 club).. Berjuang bermati-matian sempena menghayati detik2 merdeka. Hehehe.. Next time nak main!!!

(saya menang motor!!)

Tu gambar lebam kene bullet paintball ok??!! Think positive ok??!!

Jatuh cinta tgk Teddy main paintball.. so heroic, so macho.. so cool.. Mcm Leftenan Adnan dah. Nampak mcm war betul2 dah. Beriya tul diorg main, team savvy lawan Gen2. Menang time 1st game, 2nd and 3rd seri. Tmpt tu pun best, hutan.. berbukit2. Siap ada kubu lagi.

Cuti harini. Motor pulak merajuk. Bateri mati.. Melayang lg la duit aku..

El-Azhar camp

I went to El-Azhar camp in Morib last Friday for Experiential learning program. Ala2 mcm motivation punya camp gak la..Spent 3 days and 2 nights there. Exhausted gile..sakit2 badan, bahu lebam, kaki luka, tulang kat wrist rasa longgar balik..

Tapi memang best. Tido dlm khemah, masak sndri, main lumpur, redah hutan paya untuk pegi pantai, war game, samurai warriors, explorace, panjat pokok, flying fox..and paling best, fasilitator dia. Klaka gile.. Gelak sampai hilang suara.

slama ni aku mmg benci aktiviti lasak. Tak suka benda2 yg buat aku penat/kotor. Tapi kene gak buat. Seronok rupenye. Tak percaya aku boleh lepas halangan2 bertali kat pokok tinggi2 tu.. Tak percaya aku boleh menyelam dalam tasik yang keruh. Gile betul, slama ni aku cuma boleh menyelam dlm swimming pool tapi takut ngan air tasik/laut. Aku imagine kat tmpt2 mcm tu terlalu misteri nak diteroka. It's too dark inside there.. Eco-challenge dia buat aku tak igt semua yg aku takut b4 ni. Aku slambe terjun tasik, menyelam untuk dapatkan buah tembikai. Dahtu, bdk2 group aku tak reti swim.. Nasib baik aku dah blajar swim time kat casa dulu.

Smlm petang baru balik.Aku menyumpah2 driver bas tu. Mula2 psg lagu 'bahasa dia' yg memang aku tak phm lgsg tu kuat2. Pastu pasang citer king kong lak.. full volume ok.. Dengan scene jerit2 sepjg masa tu.. Aku letih ok? paham tak org nak tido?? Kalau psg cerita baru sedap sket.

Sakit badan. Baju byk gile nak kene basuh. This is what I really2 hate after camping.

Bored huh? Bosan siapa suh baca blog aku? hahhahahaa.. This is my diary and I can write anything I want. Kalo bosan, gi main jauh2..syuuuhh..syuhhh.. hehehe..

p/s: no pics. Tak bwk camera. Kalau bwk skalipun, mmg tak smpt amek gambar pun..

14 Aug '05

Tahun lepas.. 1st time jumpa Teddy. Jerebu time tu. Siap beli mask ijau, tapi malu nak pakai. Tunggu Teddy dari kul 2ptg tak sampai2.. Ujan. Akhirnya sampai gak, kul 5-6ptg.

1st time nmpk dia.. Bawak Suzuki FXR, jaket hitam, helmet full face. Nervous sgt nak jumpa sbb b4 ni, 5 tahun just main utus2 surat guna posmen. Tak pernah jmpa dia face 2 face mcm ni. Kat sekolah dulu pun tengok dari jauh je berani.

1st time tengok dia senyum.. Kiutnye!! Ada dimples kat kiri-kanan pipi dia. Tak sesuai bawak motor besar sbb dia rendah. Tapi nasib baik dia kiut.

1st time naik motor dia.. Ala2 gayat sbb motor dia tinggi, tak mcm skuter kuning aku tu. Tapi ada perasaan 'sexy' bila naik motor mcm tu. Wuhoo..aku jadik awek rempit!! Hehe.. Nasib baik Teddy ni langsung takde style mat rempit. Bukak jaket kulit itam tu, bukak helmet terus transform jadi budak paling skema on earth. Takpe, aku suka.. Memang taste aku dari dulu suka bdk skema ~ nerd, rajin blajar, takde kawan perempuan lagi bagus. hahahahaa...

1st dating place - the mines



1st movie - bewitched


1st meal together - mc D (Big Mc)

1st gift - key chain teddy bear (teddy beli masa tunggu hujan reda - sbb tu aku pggl dia teddy!!)



1st pics

I LOVE YOU, TEDDY!!

Konvokesyen ke-34 UKM (2006)

Ini Bobo.

Bobo dapat byk bunga masa konvo dia. Mama bagi bunga, Teddy bagi bunga, bdk2 gamelan bg bunga, Fiza bagi bunga, Faz pun bagi bunga. Bobo nak ucap thanx kat semua sebab datang masa majlis konvo dia haritu. Bobo pandai, dia dah dapat degree Computer & Communication Engineering. Penat dia belajar 4 tahun, akhirnya dapat jugak. Bobo sekarang tengah cari kerja sesuai. Bobo cakap, tak pyh la tanya dia lebih2 psl kerja, nanti Bobo dah kerja jadi engineer, Bobo belanje semua org karaoke.

Ini pulak gambar aku ~ Pinjam jubah Bobo.

p/s : Gambar ramai2 tu mmg takde muka aku. Aku jadi kamera girl sebab aku paling pandai amek gambar.

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Manala tau ada yg tak baca paper ke, sekadar nak menyampaikan pesanan kerajaan. Harap2 blog ni tak mengancam keselamatan negara..

Oleh itu, kibarlah jalur gemilang. Majulah sukan untuk negara. Sekian, terima kasih.

I remember - mocca

I remember...The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
I remember...When we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

Do you remember..?
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And I remember..When my father thought you were a burglar
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

I remember.. The way you read your books,
yes I remember
The way you tied your shoes,
yes I remember
The cake you loved the most,
yes I remember
The way you drank you coffee,
I remember
The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
When we caught a shooting star,
yes I remember
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And the way you smile at me,
yes I remember

So much to write

20 days without internet. So much to write, don't know where to start.

Pindah dari CasaHeaven to *** (1st of July). Somewhere in Kajang gak. Susahnya urusan nak pindah alamat. Dahla kene cut line internet..katanya seminggu. 20 hari baru settle.

Banyak sgt benda jadi lately ni. Nak tulis satu2 rasanya tak tertulis ( i mean.. ter 'type'). Orang sana-sini sibuk bercakap pasal Siti, berita tv psl Siti, newspaper pun siti lagi, blog pun psl siti.. Cukup2 la tu. Yang korang tanak pinang dia awal2 apesal?

Malas nak cerita psl berita hot siti tu. Baik aku cerita psl diri aku sendiri. Aku beli spect baru, Pergi KL Motoshow, pergi kenduri kahwin Hairul Ikmal, pergi tengok drift kat s.alam, pergi zoo negara.. (zoo??) Betulla, zoo negara. Plan asal nak gi tengok hantu kat muzium s.alam tu, tapi org beratur panjang gila, lebih 200m rasanya. Last2 pergi zoo. Pergi ramai2 ngan Teddy, Nina, Fyza and Daniel. Kesian Nina, teringin sangat nak gi zoo malam. kan nina, kan??hehe.. Last aku pergi zoo masa umo 3-4 tahun dulu. Teddy kata, mesti anak gajah yang aku tgk dulu dah besar dah.




Teddy tambah spoiler putih kat sazzy dia. Bukan tu je, siap tinted cermin blakang, letak stiker silver.. Lagi melampau dia siap belikan sazzy dia rantai Butterfly. Untuk aku takde pun..huaaaAa!!! Teddy Kijammm...

..and.. happy 11th months anniversary to teddy..
1 more month dah genap setahun.
I LOVE U SO MUCH!!

Happy belated bday

Happy belated bday Ayuni.. (29th June)

We've been friend for almost 3-4 years, tapi tak pernah jumpa. Ntah macam mana semalam boleh terserempak lak ngan dia kat KL central. Kecoh gak kat sana..sampai org semua pandang2. She's with her BF. Handsome gak, but still takleh lawan Teddy la. Teddy gak yg chumel, kiut, hensem, sweet di mata aku. hehehe..

Malas sangat nak kemas barang2 tapi 1 hari boleh buat 2 blog entry lak.

MaLAsssss nyeeeeeeee............................

cuti2 malaysia

(p/s : Sekadar gambar hiasan)

Cuti harini. Nak kemas rumah. Last day in casa. Malasnye.. Ada sesiapa nak tolong kemaskan??

HIKAYAT BLOGGER KECUNDANG..

it's been a month since my last post. Terpaksa halau tikus2 yg berkeliaran, dah buat sarang kat blog ni.

I've been very2 bz lately.. deciding which way I have to go. Which direction.. my future, my own complicated life.

I almost lost my mind, keep on thinking.. think, and think.. everywhere, every mins, every secs every day.. met with another road accident (don't worry, tak parah sangat pun), sacrifice my social life, didn't stay up late to watch FIFA + hang out with friends @ mapley, forgot to take my dinner, terjaga hampir every 1 hour tiap malam worrying about nothing.. can't really focus what I'm doing

yeah.. I'm not the only one going trough this 'things'.. Dunno what happen here.. (blog world). Tsunami maybe. or maybe.. it's normal here. sign up in blogger.com, then get the bloginson syndrome.. (blog every day, check how much comments u get, blog hoping, learn HTML etc.) after a few moments.. 3-4 monts, (maybe longer) lost interest/dilanda tsunami/ get into a fight with another blogger/ been very busy.. u know what happen. No more blog. "goodbye everyone, i'm closing this blog" or maybe senyap without any reply or updates.

There you go.

"..al-kisah.. hikayat blogger yang kecundang di tengah jalan.."

I think I don't have to list down siapa mereka2 ni. Just click on my 'Links' at my page and u'll find only 10-20% of them are still 'alive'.

Happy blogging everyone. Once a blogger always a blogger. U don't blog but I'm sure U read our blog. Keep in touch everyone. Take care

dear diary

i'm going home! I'm gonna be sick. I'm gonna miss my teddy. I'm gonna miss casa heaven + my housemates. I'm gonna miss my pentium 4.0, 3.0GHz + GeForce fx5200 128Mb 128bit graphic card + poor 512RAM. I'm sure as hell gonna miss the 'quite fast' broadband 1.0Mbps connection (actually streamyx cannot be called bradband..that's my lecturer's line ok??).

Ok guys.. i'm not gonna blog for some time. Gimme a break ok? I hate the fact that I'm still using dial up back in BP.

Take care, bubbye

Good bye casa heaven..

clik here to know who we are..

looooong weekend

Last Saturday (13th May) we went to Genting. Biasala.. Budak DAH SIAP THESIS katakan.. hehehe.. Me and Teddy only.. don't ask me bout that 2 other girls in the pic.. I didn't know them.. no, no.. not nina/iris..

Yesterday, pergi mengadap bakal mak mentua. (mentua ke mertua?? correct me if i'm wrong). Results : excellent!! Mak dia suruh aku datang lagi next time.. hehehe...

Phewww.. i'm not her lost daughter.. Tu dah cukup bagusss. hahaha

boredom killer

ye, saya jiwang. Sebab apa? Sebab tak ada nak buat apa2. Berangan sambil berjiwang are the best things to do right now. Sebab exam final year dah habis. Sebab thesis tinggal nak bind hard cover. Sebab cd Carnivalle dah tengok habis. Sebab tengah tanam anggur sambil menanti hasilnya. Sebab saya suka melukis.. More drawings and cerpen(s) to be published. coming soon..

p/s: nina, sila jeless.. hahahhahaaa...

Hobi saya (part ii)

Teddy saya

Inilah hasil kerja budak yang takde kerja. Hehe.. Thesis dah siap, tapi belum settle. (macam mana tu?) Dah siap, tapi tengah tunggu lecturer approve baru boleh bind jadikan buku, 3 copies. Siapa2 berminat nak try driving simulator made in Malaysia punya, contact saya. Hehehee...


p/s: Saya lukis tu..bukan tekap guna kertas carbon. Sila percaya..

inang ghenek

enjoy this beautiful+cute malay's traditional dance...

shortcut blogging

Model : Serina
Place : Casa Villa's swimming pool
Time : 6.15pm

Dear Techs
Support Team:
Last year I upgraded from Girlfriend 5.0 to Wife 1.0 .
I soon noticed that the new program began unexpected child-processes that took up a lot of space and valuable resources.

In addition, Wife 1.0 installed itself into all other programs and now monitors all other system activities.
Applications such as BachelorNights 10.3 , Cricket 5.0 , BeerWithBuddies 7.5, and Outings 3.6 no longer runs, crashing the system whenever selected. I can't seem to keep Wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run my favorite applications.

I'm thinking about going back to Girlfriend 5.0 , but the 'uninstall' doesn't work on Wife 1.0 .
Please help!

Thanks,
"A Troubled User"

REPLY:

Dear Troubled User:
This is a very common problem that people complain about.
Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 5.0 to Wife 1.0 , thinking that it is just a Utilities and Entertainment program.
Wife 1.0
is an OPERATING SYSTEM and is designed by its Creator to run EVERYTHING!!!
It is also impossible to delete Wife 1.0 and to return to Girlfriend 5.0 .
It is impossible to uninstall, or purge the program files from the system once installed.
You cannot go back to Girlfriend 5.0 because Wife 1.0 is designed not to allow this. (Look in your Wife 1.0 Manual under Warnings-Alimony-Child Support) .

I recommend that you keep Wife1.0 and work on improving the environment.
I suggest installing the background application "Yes Dear" to alleviate software augmentation.
The best course of action is to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE because ultimately you will have to give the APOLOGIZE command before the system will return to normal anyway.

Wife 1.0
is a great program, but it tends to be very high maintenance. Wife 1.0 comes with several support programs, such as Clean 2.5, Sweep 3.0, Cook 1.5 and DoLaundry 4.2 . However, be very careful how you use these programs. Improper use will cause the system to launch the program NagNag 9.5 . Once this happens, the only way to improve the performance of Wife 1.0 is to purchase additional software. I recommend Clothes 2.1 and Jewellery 5.0

WARNING
: DO NOT, under any circumstances, install SecretaryWithShortSkirt 3.3 . This application is not supported by Wife 1.0 and will cause irreversible damage to the operating system.

Best of luck,
Tech Support

********************************************************************************

Nothing much. Just copy and paste this from my email. Hope my OS paper last wednesday can cover up my carry marks.

Talking bout marriage.. No, i won't say anything. Know nothing bout marriage. My mom is a single parent since i was born. Of course, i never heard my parents yell at each other or maybe complaint bout things like stated above.

I had a bad dream last night. Nightmare..

Bout Teddy.. Bout me..become his 2nd wife. WTF??!! NOO..!! Neverrrr!!!!

Zapin

This is what happen when i'm in a busy mode. More entries..hehe.. Need something/someone to express my feelings/thought. Tension, tertekan (sama je la kan??).. No, no.. Tak tension. OK je. Ntahla.. Sorry akak 'cik Puan yg tak berapa nak Muda sangat dan suka Stress'. Malas nak buat tag la. Lain kali na.. hutang dulu.. hehe..

Sekarang tengah mode Exam. (I'll try my best to use standard Bahasa Melayu++ rojak English). Only 2 papers left and a full report of my final year project (thesis).




ID number : A 86394

Question (A) - essay
Elaborate this picture using not more than 1000 words.

(Answer should be written in standard Bahasa Melayu)




Ini merupakan gambar sekumpulan penari zapin yang diambil pada tahun 1998. Saya merupakan salah seorang anggota kumpulan penari ini dan telah menjayakan beberapa persembahan zapin pada majlis-majlis tertentu.

Saya bangga menjadi seorang anak jati negeri Johor yang telah disemat dengan nilai-nilai budaya kebanggaan negeri ini sejak dari awal lagi. Bermula dari pemilihan di sekolah, mewakili daerah Batu Pahat sebagai salah seorang peserta daripada 100 orang dari detiap daerah di Johor. Persembahan pertama, di dewan tertutup MPJB menari bersama-sama 800 orang dari 8 daerah di Johor. Kumpulan penari ini kemudiannya berkembang dan menerima pelbagai undangan, termasuklah merasmikan pembukaan F1 di Sepang pada tahun 2001.

...............................................................................................................................................................

Hehe..aduila..tak larat nak tulis skema2 macam ni. Rasa nak pengsan, bosan pulak bila baca semula. Takde point penting pun. Cuma aku dah dapat 2 undangan untuk mengajar zapin untuk akhir bulan 5 ni. 1 mengajar Jururawat Hospital Batu Pahat.. Satu lagi kat sekolah di Seremban.. Jadi cikgu Zapin je boleh? Tak payah jadi engineer..

eisk..

Tinggal 2 paper je lagi ni... gambatte pada diri sendiri...

it's been a year...

Dear diary,

it's been a year since I create u

(17th april 2005~17th april 2006)



Sarat dengan memori suka duka

Bermula dari kisah sedih

Berkisar tentang perjuangan untuk bangkit

Bangkit semula dengan sayap baru

Berkembang menjadi kegilaan, bloginson syndrome

Bermula titik persahabatan

..semua ini tidak mahu aku tamatkan





and

happy belated b'day to me

i wish for a b'day cake next year

my dear 'online diary'..

*/ entry will be written fully in Malay.. Jen, take out ur dictionary.hehe... /*

***Kemeja batik putih untuk Bebek***

Tempat : Pasar Payang, Kuala Terengganu

Mahal tu. Aku mana ada duit banyak2 nak beli kemeja batik berkain lembut macam sutera macam tu. Tapi Kemeja putih tu cantik.. Nak belikan untuk orang.

Tapi aku beli jugak

Untuk Bebek. Istimewa untuk Bebek..

Untuk dia pakai masa aku konvo nanti. Biar orang lain cemburu tengok kemeja batik putih yang cantik tu.

******

" Nak pergi mana ni? "

" Sembahyang Jumaat "

" Kenapa pakai kemeja putih tu? "

Bebek tersengih.

Suka betul dia pakai. Sembahyang Jumaat pun pakai.

******

Kenapa panggil 'Bebek'?

Mama kata, sebab dulu aku dengar mama panggil dia 'Bapak'.

Masa tu kecik2 lagi.. Nak menyebut pun tak reti. Jadilah 'Bebek'..

******

Heran.

Kenapa semua orang ada abah?

Aku cuma ada mama

Tapi takpe, aku ada bebek..

******

Bebek suka manjakan aku.

Bawak jalan2 waktu petang naik moto, beli jajan kat kedai cina.

Nanti nyonya tu cakap cina dengan aku.

Aku senyap. Tak faham.

Nyonya pandang Bebek

"???????? (bahasa Cina jugak)"

"Saya melayu la nyonya..." Bebek kata. Nyonya terus mintak maaf.

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Kecik2 dulu aku gemuk. Sangat2 gemuk.

Bebek la ni..

Tiap hari bancuhkan air susu 'Dumex'(sejenis jenama susu kanak2), bubuh dalam botol susu aku.

Bebek kata, susu 'DUMOK' sebab buat aku jadi GUMOK..

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Tempat : Darjah 1 Biru, Sekolah Rendah Convent Batu Pahat.

Hari pertama sekolah.

Bebek hantar.

Bebek tunggu kejap, lepas tu balik bila kelas bermula. Aku terpinga-pinga.

Tengok luar kelas, mak bapak budak2 lain tunggu.

Ada budak yang nangis2 bila tak nmpk mak bapak diorang.

Huh, ngade2.. Mama slalu tinggalkan aku bila kerja kat Muar seminggu lebih aku tak nangis pun.

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Jadi budak gemuk buat aku malas.

Pergi sekolah yang dekat tu pun nak bebek hantar naik motor.

Sampai darjah 6, dah ada basikal pun Bebek hantar.

Kadang2 motor rosak, Bebek ambik naik basikal aku.

Bersusah payah bebek mengayuh basikal bila aku yang gemuk ni membonceng kat belakang.

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Dulu basikal buruk..

Lepas tu dapat basikal mountain bike sebab UPSR dapat 4A.

bangganya, jadi orang yang mula2 ada mountain bike antara kawan2 yang lain.

Kegilaan terbaru, lumba basikal.

Bia jatuh, tangan terkehel, Bebek la yang urut.

Bebek memang tukang urut.

"Sakitlaaa!!!" aku 'ter'terajang Bebek masa dia tarik tangan aku untuk betulkan urat.

Tak sengaja. Tu lah, lumba basikal lagi..

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Darjah 6 dah pandai bawak motor.

Sian bebek.

Selalu hilang motor.

Aku curik, bawak pusing2 taman.

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Bebek suka tengok wrestling. Aku tak suka. Ngeri.

Bila ada wrestling mesti berebut TV. Bila dapat remote control, aku sorokkan blakang aku.

Tak bagi bebek tukar siaran wrestling. Aku nak tgk kartun.

Bila bebek dapat remote, jangan harap dia nak bagi aku.

Bila aku kalah, tutup TV, masuk bilik..

Sakit hati dengar bebek gelak2 sambil bukak TV balik.

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Bebek takde gigi.

Aku slalu ajuk cara dia makan.

Macam dinosour yang makan daun dalam cerita jurassic park.

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Kalau lalu tepi bebek, suka usik dia

Tarik Hidung dia time dia tdo, lps tu lari..

Kalau aku tengah baring pulak,

nanti bebek tarik telinga aku, kadang2 tarik kaki.

Bila aku marah, nanti dia gelakkan aku je.

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Bila bebek sakit

Aku tarik hidung dia pun tak marah lagi

Aku bukakkan wrestling pun dia tak larat nak tengok

Aku bagi kunci motor pun dia tak larat nak pegang

Aku suapkan pun dia tak nak makan

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Kemeja Batik Putih tu

Dia tak sempat pakai untuk majlis Konvo aku

Dia tak dapat bertahan sampai bulan 8 ni

Masa dia sakit, aku tak boleh terima kenyataan

Aku ingat dia takkan tinggalkan aku

Tapi lama2 aku sedih

Sedih tengok dia menderita sakit

Malam sebelum dia pergi.. Aku doa pada Tuhan.

"Ya Allah..permudahkan perjalanan hidup dan mati Bebek..

Kurangkanlah seksanya.."

aku izinkan Bebek pergi kali ni

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Esoknya, mama telefon..

Bawa berita yang aku dah jangkakan

Akhirnya Bebek pergi jua, tinggalkan aku..

..aku rindu Bebek...

Ya Allah, peliharakan Bebek
Tempatkan rohnya dikalangan insan2 yang Kau kasihi..
Peliharakan dia..
Peliharakan juga Allahyyarham abah,
serta Allahyarhamah nenek dan mak long kesayanganku

Dear Diary..

i got so much to tell you.. dunno where to start. Last Thursday, viva. Everything's going on very well ~ i successfully convince everyone including my lecturers that i have completed my thesis 100%. (Actually it's 80% finished) Everyone seems to believe me coz i have the confidence while delivering my presentation with interesting video (thanx 2 nina 4 being my 'testing model').

Friday morning, i went to Nilai for my 1st job interview. Emerson Process Management. Once again everything seems so perfect that i didn't even feel even 1 butterfly in my stomach.

10am, i'm back in UKM. Went to my department (electrical department) farewell party. (party??)
Ntahla..ada makan2 sket. Yang penting, mkn free.. and yess, Fiza ~ it has been sooo long we haven't eat plenty of delicious food like that.. (breakfast nasi lemak RM1/Lunch maggi mee/dinner nasi bungkus kolej RM1)

12pm ~ watching anime @ bilik shamil. Got a phone call from mama..

"Bebek dah tak ada.. Balik cepat, nak kebumikan sebelum maghrib. Bagitau kakak skali"

I got the news, call my sister and ready to go home immediately. Sehelai sepinggang. I manage to hold my tears until Shamil ask me what happen.

Sampai rumah kul 8pm. $^#%@@! punya bas transnational!! I'll never take that bus again. delay 1 hour. Tak sempat.. Tak sempat jumpa Bebek 4 the last time. Never got the chance to kiss him goodbye..

No, i didn't cry..

I'm glad he's gone in a peaceful way. Mama kata bebek meninggal dalam keadaan qiam, kedua belah tangan sedia di perut, kaki lurus dirapatkan. Macam dah sedia dan tau dah sampai masanya..

april datang lagi..

April..
it's april again..
i start blogging on april'05
since i got my wing broken

no worries
i got it fixed
as gud as new
and i can fly
high above the sky

..and now it's april again
ugrhh..it's hurt!!
i need something to fix my wing again
anyone got the 'elephant glue'??

a tribute for my beloved grandpa

..Al-Fatihah..
(7 april 06)

playing with picasa2

thanx to nina..hehe

i got something new to explore






thesis?

ape tu?!!

10 sept 2003

Yap..my drawing
Suzuki FXR kesayangan Teddy

Tak sangka dapat tgk lukisan ni lagi
Teddy simpan semua surat2 aku termasuk lukisan ni dari tahun 2000 lagi

..ada kad raya aku..
..ada gambar skuter kuning aku (masih baru tanpa sebarang calar)..
..ada surat2 bercerita tentang motor, kereta, F1, family, termasuk kisah2 perjalanan hidup aku..
..ada surat dari 'xxx' (pesaing aku yg cuba rebut hati Teddy)..

cayang teddy!!

Kimi ternyata tak menghampakan aku
2nd place
okla tu..
Alonso memang hebat
..tapi tak best sokong org yg hebat ni
sbb kita tau dia gerenti menang
..sokonglah yang sederhana hebat
kiut pulak tu
Kimi

Sakit belakang, penat ngadap PC 24/7
Viva rabu ni
wish me luck

Go Kimi, go!!!

Tomorrow
.. no, no..
11 hours + 16 mins more..
Melbourne
go Kimi!!
I (still) love u!!

err..i do love Teddy a.k.a my biawak peliharaan yg manje more than Kimi..

p/s : Happy b'day Wong Ah Beng!!

Bz mode

bz

no time to update

i hate matlab simulink

i hate VRealm Builder

i only LOVE teddy..

because he gave me this...

and this...
(poster kimi raikkonen yg dpt free dari 7e dpn umah aku kalo beli 2 tin nescafe)


..on our '7th month anniversary' (24th March 2006)

disappointment

That's it! Apa yg aku tak nak tgk dah jadi. Luckily aku dah mintak break awal2 dulu. Tula, siapa suruh dia tinggalkan sauber Petronas dulu.. Mmgla Mclaren best, tapi akhirnya accident gak. Malu aku tau, malu!! 1 lap pun tak habis. Kecewa sgt2.. (ada sket rasa geram tgk Teddy tersengih puas tgk kekalahan dia)

Senyum tanda 'kemenangan' setelah tau Kimi accident

Tapi, maybe dia tak dpt concentrate bila dia nmpk aku dtg bwk teddy..

I know, he still miss me.. *sigh*

Dia tak tau aku susah payah dtg sana. On d way nak sampai Sepang, baru teringat pasal kamera. Excited sgt nak pegi smpi lupa nak bawak. Really2 spoil the mood. Smpi Sepang circuit kul 2 p.m. Mcm nak gile mencari kedai kamera. Akhirnya dpt gak kamera yg disposable. (2.30 p.m)

Bolehla..dari takde langsung.

Patah balik Sepang circuit. 1 problem lagi. Jem! Jalan tutup sana sini. Haih.. Teddy pun confident tak beli tiket lagi. (semua nak salahkan Teddy, cian dia..hehe). Nak cari tiket pun 1 hal. Silap masuk jalan, dah pusing patah balik tol dah. The clock wont stop ticking - 3.00 p.m!!

Dpt gak ticket akhirnya. Student price - RM25. Untung jd student ni. Teddy pun mengaku student, bwk id card dia yg dah buruk tu. ngehehehe.. Parking ticket (RM50) lagi mahal dr ticket nak tgk F1.

Kelam kabut nak cari port baik. 3.25 p.m. Student punya tmpt hillstand G. Kitorang salah tmpt, K2. Jauh gile nak gi kat G. Mood tgk F1 makin hilang. Dahla terlambat.. Teddy merayu kat abg guard yg jaga ticket.. "bolela bang..Lagipun race dah start ni"

Naseb baik dpt gak. Aku buat muka ala2 dah nak nangis.

Dah 3.30 p.m. Sampai2 je aku terus cari McLaren. Tersengih2 bila nmpk dia lalu dpn aku. Port kali ni ok. Nampk hampir half circuit. Thn lepas kat grandstand cuma nmpk jln lurus, terhad. Kene tgk dari big screen yg aku tak brp paham sgt tu. hehehe..

Tengok betul2, heran lak kenapa McLaren ada 1 je. Dgr nama Montoya lak tu. Gelabah gile cari Kimi. Rupanya dia accident b4 aku smpt support dia.

"Montoya finished fourth after a quiet run, but McLaren lost Kimi Raikkonen on the first lap after a brush in Turn 5 from the Red Bull of Christian Klien sent him spinning into the wall and retirement."

Ban RED BULL!!!

Kali ni mmg mood aku terus spoil habis. Taknak sokong sapa2. BMW sauber meletup (meletup lagi..) dpn aku pun dah tak kisah.. Kawan2, jgn beli kete BMW, nanti meletup kalau bwk laju. hehe

Balik dari Sepang circuit dgn rasa kuciwa yg amat sgt. Sesat kat Nilai lak tu. Malang nye naseb..













P/s : dun complaint bout the pics quality. It's disposable camera!!

kimi v/s simulation

That's my kimi wearing his lucky jacket that i gave him last year. He's cute, isn't he? Yeah..I know i shouldn't leave him. He's juz being so sweet, so nice 2 me but i prefer 'relationship without risk' (hahahaa..WITHOUT?? ada ke?). I owez think that i'm going to be a JANDA everytime I see him in his McLaren.

I saw him on TV last Sunday n started to miss him. Terkenang dolu2, time dia bagi I steering wheel and foot pedal 4 PC game. He said he wanted me to remember him everytime i play Need 4 speed underground (yang tak pernahnye lepas higher stage).

Akhirnya berguna jugakla hadiah yang dia bagi tu. I use it 4 my thesis, "Driving simulator using VRB and Matlab Simulink". Macam buat game kereta, simulation bodo jek. Suppose to have vehicle dynamic skali, tp mcm tak sempat je. Virtual environment utk simuator ni bertemakan Bandar Baru Bangi.


Panic gak at 1st bile kereta tu jalan ke atas bila foot pedal ditekan. Tak reti nak tukar axis. Tunjuk kat lecturer "Encik, takpe ye? kereta saya ni futuristic punya kereta. tekan minyak dia terbang. Leh atasi masalah jem.." En. Hanief pandang aku semacam. (Tak boleh ke??)


Akhirnya, hari ni dah berjaya betulkan. Seronok tak terkata. Macam main need 4 speed tapi takyah tertekan sebab tak de siapa yg akan kalah. Takde time limit. HahaHAhahaa... (mode Gelak yang dibuat2 dikala tertekan ON)

Next, vehicle dynamic. aiyyoooo...






yess..i know. Very the bersepah wan. Handphone buruk utk msg Teddy dikala tension, calculator yg ntah siapa punya ntah, kertas proposal thesis utk rujukan, dan tak lupa Star newspaper (atas CPU) utk cari job online. Dah nak grad!!

macam dah takde keje je aku ni..

i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty
uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal
pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a
rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't
mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the
olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer
be in the rghit pclae.

The rset can be a taotl mses and yhou can sitll
raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the
huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef,
but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I
awlyas tghuuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

atcuatlly bneda ni dah lmaa dah. Sjae pos kat sini. Maacm dah tkade kjee je kan??
raeidng tihs mkae me feel so rileeve bcesaue its oaky now to mkae so mcuh sepillng msiktae.

hahahhahaaa.. now, which 1 u feel the most annoying?
~ to read something with so much typo or grammatical error?

Happy bdayTeddy..

Strawberry cheese cake yg sgt2 sedap..nyummm..nyumm..

5th March 1982 ~ 5th March 2006
Love u owez..

Tagged by Leli Kambenk!!

( Port Dickson ~ 25th Feb '06 )


8 Different points of a perfect lover


1. shweeeeet smile + cute butt. hehe..

• extra points for dimples..

2. kiut!!


3. someone who can protect me

• bukanla nak yg body tough sgt, atleast yg buat aku rasa sentiasa selamat dari segenap aspek (fizikal, mental, emosi, finance..etc)

4. Responsible

• willing to take a burdensome responsibility by having me as his GF

5. Romantic

• he remembers our important dates such as anniversary, 1st date, birthday.. etc. etc. etc.

6. Patient (@ max level)

• treat me like a princess please.. hehe.. muahh..muahhss!!

7. Kind-hearted

• (dunno what to do with that clear blue sky pic)

8. not-so-perfect person

• heyy.. nobody's perfect aite? Aperla Leli ..tag aku ngan menda nih. There's no such thing of 'perfect lover' sbb kapel yg tak pernah gado tu la kapel yg paling bermasalah.. kan??kan??

tagged 8 victims
* takyah, takyah.. aku baik ati arini.